Friday, September 11, 2009

Are we there yet?

Ladies and Gentlemen, please welcome the one and only stable HCG person on the planet!

Yes, that would be me. This morning we went to the hospital, got the blood done and the midwife was once again brilliant! She contacted Dr. A before I left so that we can have a plan given that is, once again, friday. Dr. A would have called me with the results and talk to me directly after lunch.
And so she did, she asked how I was (I'm well, but I think I ate something wrong yesterday...) and if I had any bleeding (no, I don't think so, but maybe a slightly slightly coloured mucus?). Anyway the HCG on sunday was 964 and today was 1007. She definitely calls this a plateau. Really no difference. Actually I think we may have reached a turning point! From 885 to 964 in two days and now after five more we are to 1007. I'd say we've gone around the corner. Could it be that it's actually slowley going down?
So what do we do now? She said she's really trying to hold off on the methotrexate because she said "You really cannot start IVF again for two month if you get the shot" I said "No worries! I don't think we'll try again for at least 4 months" but still the values are not going to increase now I think and we can wait a little longer to make a decision. I'm going in on wednesday for yet another blood test and a scan (given that I had two embryos transferred back and that she's very confident they removed the pregnancy with the laparoscopy, could I have picked the lucky ticket for two ectopics for the price of one within the same IVF?) and we decide that day how we progress. If the values haven't dropped I'll definitely insist on the injection. She said the side effect are actually minimal and yes of course I can feel a bit sick with it but it's more likely I won't.

Today a year ago I found out our first ICSI had worked. Can you celebrate a BFP anniversary even if it turned out to be an ectopic? Still I feel in the last year a lot had happened, I got pregnant twice and maybe a third time wasn't far off! This is out of four transfers! Ok I have no babies yet, but I know ladies who never got a second line on those damn sticks, and even though the happiness for us was short lived, it still was one of the happiest moment in my life.

10 comments:

  1. You are amazing. Somehow you remain positive, hopeful, and even have a sense of humor through all of this. I think you are my hero. And thank you, sweetie, for being so kind and supportive to me today. Your words were gentle and reassuring and helped me calm down. Thank you, dear friend.

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  2. I'm also amazed that you remain so upbeat - very impressive! As you say, it's positive that you've had good embryos to transfer, and that they can implant in your body. I just wish they'd implant in the right spot next time!
    Hope you get good news on Wed.

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  3. Wow, you sound so upbeat and like you're taking all of this news in stride. I wouldn't be handling it nearly as well. Oh, and of cours you can celebrate the anniversary of a BFP. I hope this time next year you'll be holding the results of your next bfp in your arms. (or at least close to this time)

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  4. Well at least it's not going UP!

    I still find a lot of great things about my losses. I got a lot of happiness, even if it was short-lived. so yes, I think you can very easily find a way to feel happy that you DID get pregnant and you DID get to celebrate for a little while. even if the rest of the story is really quite sad.

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  5. Oh, Fran, I am so inspired by you! Yes, we must celebrate all the positives - your BFPs represent so many wonderful things about your fertility and it's so important to honour that. Here's to three times being the charm (and to the luck of the Irish!).
    Love,
    Maddy

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  6. It's a special skill to be able to see the good in every situation like you're doing right now... Lets hope that you don't need that shot after all hon.

    Thinking of you.

    xxx

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  7. Fran, I hear you on the happiness, even if short lived. It does look like a lot happened to you. You are able to get pregnant, now we just need to get it in the right place! some tweaking, that hopefully will work out its magic next time. :)
    meanwhile... this hSG ordeal is ridiculous. I'm so sorry you are still dealing with this.
    hugs

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  8. Just popping in to say hello and hoping you're doing ok. Hugs!

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  9. I agree with many of the previous comments! You are so wonderfully upbeat and hopeful ~ I am envious (in a good way) of how hopeful you have remained!!!

    I can't believe that your numbers are remaining the same/plateauing. Hopefully they will soon start dropping and y'all can soon make plans on transferring healthy embryos!

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  10. Yes, of course you can still celebrate. That baby was still yours, even if things didnt go as planned.

    I'm sorry about the plateau. I was really hoping values would decrease. I know you were too. Sending big hugs...

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