Sunday, May 31, 2009

Blogs and Bloggers

After planting a few new plants in the window-boxes I have on my balcony, I decided if I didn't want to get sunburnt (imagine!) to go back in and finding more blogs to follow. The easiest way is to see which ones are followed by those you follow already. Until I found the most amazing blogroll here. I know I know, this is the Queen of all infertility blogs and I should have found her ages ago, but here we go.
I have also become a little more familiar with the settings and layout of my own personal gilrs are cyber geniuses!! Some of your layouts are just unbelievable, fair play to you. So I have read some other incredible stories of strength and hope and tears and joy. I know it's probably a phase but I have joined blogs where my fellow IF cyberfriends are not pregnant just yet. Like me. It gives me joy, of course, to read the journey of those who now have a BFP, or stunning beta or even better a heartbeat. Haven't gone as far as reading about birth and joy and sorrows of parenthood though, I'm the phase of "strictly infertility" and I feel more suited to commenting on those blogs rather than pregnancy (even after infertility) a part for my first ever blog-friend who's now pregnant.
It's as if I find it easier this way. I know I will be happy to read about BFPs of my newly added bloggers, they are on my same side now, I'll get to know you all much better throughout your journey and I will be truly excited to celebrate your BFP any time from tomorrow onwards!
So to Sandra D. my new cycber friend, thank you for joining my blog, really appreciated it! (((Sandra D:)))

Friday, May 29, 2009

Sun shines

What a fab weather, it should last for the weekend at least.
Doesn't everything look much better when the weather is on your side? Still no sign of AF but at least now I don't think I'm ovulating :o) Going by the days only I would be a day late! aha hahah

My swimming is also going well, not really sure I'm loosing weight to be honest but I do feel very well and happy.

News on the adoption forms: still missing the letter from the Embassy, I couldn't believe it, I rang again this morning and they promised (again) that it'll be ready by monday. So on monday I'm going to show up there and I won't leave until I have this damn letter. And then we're good to go!

Sunday, May 24, 2009

Waiting for AF

Would you believe it that this is the first time in my life (ok maybe not that long...) that I have absolutely no clue about where I am in my cycle? After the failed biochemical FET I got my period and then i kind of looked for signs like EWM but the only thing I can say is that first I thought I ovulated a bit late, now I think I may be ovulating again which is absolutely weird!
I have no idea about when AF will show up, going by the calendar should be next Thursday, but I'd say it'll be more likely to be sometime in June. Not that I'm concerned at the moment, I will have to start the pill in preparation for our next ICSI in July and the clinic only needs me to be on it for a minimum of 2 weeks! So unless I get to the third week in June with no AF I'll be fine. I don't like the pill did you guess? :o)

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Today would have been the day...

If my pregnancy had not been ectopic, today would have been the "due date". It feels very strange and quite surreal. Obviously I don't have a child in my arms, nor a growing belly. It may be a general feeling of us infertile women, I'm sure, but more often than not it feels like it'll never happen. We have dates now for our next cycle which is great. But I also have an appointment for this afternoon to go to the Embassy and get translations certified for our adoption application pack. It feels good to have this option too.

Monday, May 18, 2009

We have dates!

Finally! We now have dates for our next cycle!! Got the call this morning with some sort of an apology for the delay and an explanation.
So because I'm not on the pill I'll have to wait for the next cycle which should be at the beginning of June (I don't think I have ovulated yet, after all the downregulating I've been through I'm not surprised!).
This time I won't be put on the nasal spray!! Hurray!!! just short protocol, stopping the pill on the 2nd of July, scans starting on the 9th of July, starting stimming and EC for the 22nd-23rd of July!!! We are going to blast, I don't think there's any point in not to, at least as a plan to start with. I'm delighted. And now it's time to plan the holidays!

Friday, May 15, 2009


I don't have much to report a part from the fact that the nurse in charge of scheduling my cycle was too busy this week to give me a call (since monday last!). So we have no dates yet. I have actually just sent an email to the clinic with a letter attached in which, beside all the appreciation for every memebr of staff, I actually said that I was quite unhappy about the policy "no news is good news" adopted by their lab and also about the delay every time in getting dates for the next cycle. I mean, between my fresh cycle and the next frozen one passed 5 months (transfer to transfer), then three more months before the next frozen cycle (they could have been done back-to-back according to the doctor in the clinic), I wonder if I'll manage to get one done before the end of the year at this pace! Anyway we'll see.
Meanwhile I have started going swimming. I had forgotten how much I love swimming! So I hope this renewed activity will bring me back to my weight before IVF, I have 4 kilo to lose. Go me!

Monday, May 11, 2009

Back with a plan

I'm back! We had a fantastic time and really taking a break from ttc, ICSI and drugs was definitely what we needed. The place, the food, the people, the weather...oh my God, to die for. It was the first time in Sicily for Mike and he loved it. We went on a tour on Mount Etna, walking along the lava fall of 2002 and of previous years, it was surreal.
And now we are back, at least the weather is not bad which helps.

I've got my phone call from Dr.W at the clinic. He said he was quite surprised I got a BFN after the blast transfer. I told him I though I had had a chemical pregnancy because I had seena very faint positive test. So he seemed much happier. He suggested DNA-fragmentation test for Mike and suggested to put me on heparin and steroids for the next cycle. I'm very happy he's trying the heavy machinary on me! I told him I felt the oestrogens for the FET cycle were making me quite unwell, so I thought it wasn't great for me in any case. One odd thing was that he suggested to do some immuno tests which I had done alreay last November after the ectopic so he looked at the results and told me that two values were borderline...WTF??? Borderline?? the nurse said they were clear!! I was quite annoyed really, maybe I could have been put on something for these last two FET and maybe the outcome could have been different...Anyway, I now have to wait for the call from the clinic to schedule my next cycle. Dr. W was adamant that a FET cycle is nothing more than a normal cycle so there's no need to wait as my one and only EC was last summer! Let's hope I can go ahead soon.

I also got all my documents for the adoption process so now I have to translate them into english and get them certified at the embassy and we're good to go! I'm hoping that this year will bring us good news on all fronts.

Saturday, May 2, 2009

Hairstyle and holidays

I did it! I got my hair cut a good bit! Really like it and makes me feel younger too! Mike is always doubtful when I cut my hair short, but I'm sure he'll get used to it soon. At the shopping centre there was also a beauty-salon who was offering various treatment for charity and I got a make-up done as well! Going nowhere with it though as we are just packing the suitacase for our holiday cum wedding in Sicily...flight is at 6.30 tomorrow morning, we'll have to get up around 3.30-4.00 at the very latest to get to the airport, I'm wondering if there's any point at all in going to bed!
Really excited about the trip, it'll be good relaxing and eating good food for almost nothing. I'll tell you all about it when we'll get back in a week time.

Friday, May 1, 2009

AF from Hell!

Last night it started. At least I don't have to worry about an ectopic pregnancy! As usual after a cycle this period comes from Hell...ah well, the only consolation is that it'll be nearly over on Sunday when we go to Sicily! Can't wait for our little holiday!