ICLW July 2010

Hello readers! You can find my story on the left (it's a summary, shouldn't take too long!) and this time to do something a little different I'm going to use the alphabet to say something about me. I'll only use the first half of the letters and leave the rest for the next ICLW.

A Awareness. I want to raise awareness about infertility by talking openly about how this pregnancy came to be.

B Baby. As incredible as it still is for me, I am growing a baby. If it's a dream, nobody wakes me.

C Courage. You need a lot of it to pick yourself up again after a disappointment (or 6)

D Dude. This is one of my two cats, he run away as I started the preparation for my last FET and we found him again on the day of the transfer when we had lost hope. I believe he's a magic creature with superpowers!

E Ectopic pregnancies. I suffered two, both after ICSIs and the good thing that came out of it is the charity we have set up to support other women going through the same.

F Faith. I admit I go through phases of having faith and losing it. Now I have it, please stay.

G Grey's Anatomy. Oh my God I watched the 6 series back to back, how did I not follow this from the beginning is a mystery to me. Can't wait for the next series.

H Hope. The only thing that keeps you going forward and try again. The hope to see those 2 lines. The hope that the beta will be rising. The hope that this time the pregnancy will be in the uterus.

I Ireland. I moved here in 2001 and feel at home.

J Joy. In the end there is joy. At times it's impossible to see it, the feeling of desperation that despite all the attempts we'll end up empty handed always lurks under the waters. But we had started the adoption process also and we knew that one day, in a way or another we will have had a child.

K Knowledge. Learning about infertility and being able to read scientific literature gave me the opportunity of interacting a lot with my doctors. Deciding with them which protocol to do, which other exams may be useful and so on made me feel much more involved in the process.

L Lyuda. This is the name of my Favourite Doctor at the clinic. She was the one who picked up the ectopics when no one else was giving me credit for my fear that something was wrong. I believe she almost saved my life.

M Mike. My husband, I'd be lost without him. He's been my strength throughout this journey, he'll be an amazing daddy.

More next time!