Friday, September 21, 2012

8w6d another scan

I had no spotting or bleeding since Sunday. I felt so confident I stopped wearing a pad. And then I woke up this morning to another gush of blood. For the love of God, can this stop? Or can I have a definite sign that the pregnancy is over and I can move on? Of course it's friday, what do I do? Shall I stay put till tuesday when I have my scheduled appointment? This would be 4 more days of drugs and my face already looks like a full moon... So I called the clinic and went in. Fav Doc is on annual leave this week but another lovely nurse scanned me. I told her about the bleeding, about the SCH, about the slow growth and slow heartbeat. I told her I was not expecting to see a heartbeat today, in fact a part from the tiredness I don't think I have many other symptoms (big boobs aside, but sure with the hormones....a tree would have grown boobs by now). She said let's have a look, it was a frozen embryo I've seen all sorts of slow growth and healthy babies at the end. Ok.
Sure enough Phoenix was much bigger, and with a heartbeat. Not only that, the SCH is much smaller (she thought it could have bled out this morning) and definitely not threatening. I told her I stopped the aspirin but was still on clexane and that I wasn't sure it was ok with the SCH. She said great I stopped the aspirin and the dose of clexane I'm on is low and to keep that up. Then she started taking measures, Phoenix is catching up in growth measuring now 8w2d she said perfectly within range (it was 7w1d last saturday so it's a big growth) and the heartbeat is up to 157. She was so kind she showed me the amniotic sac which is already formed, the umbilical cord, the placenta and the yolk sac being pushed away as you would expect between 8 and 9 weeks of pregnancy. She showed me the brain vesicle which looks normal.  This looks like a very normal pregnancy to her, she even gave me pics! Through the tears I said to her "I better start loving this baby so" And she said "You better!". She also said there's no need to have a scan every week, but if I feel anxious to go in. I told her that strangely I don't feel anxious but for some reason I feel quite negative. I actually thought I was developing an infection of some kind, I don't feel very well overall, I have shivers, headache for the last two days and my tummy is acting up too. In my head these were all signs of a miscarriage. But this is not the case. Stop thinking this is gong to end any minute now. Start believing.

26 comments:

  1. YAY!!!! I was so hoping the baby would be fine!

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  2. No wonder you were tired!
    At 18 weeks i still have trouble believing, so i can't blame you for that ;-)
    (is it even possible to believe before you can feel the baby?)
    Wishing you a smooth ride, can't believe Phoenix' antics up till now. Or would the scan machine be so inaccurate?!
    Hope you can enjoy the weekend, without any scares now.
    just pimples! ;-)

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  3. So glad baby Phoenix is fine! He/She needs to stop scaring mama!

    I hope you start to feel better soon. Embrace your little Phoenix!

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  4. YEAH!!!!! What wonderful wondrous news! I'm so glad this little one is turning it around!

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  5. WAHOO! I knew that little embryo could grow and grow! So happy for you!

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  6. So happy for u! Enjoy this!!!!!!!!

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  7. I'm so happy to read this. I had a lot of bleeding and slow growth u/s with my last baby too...now she is almost 2 and running all over the place. Yay.
    kd

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  8. Oh my goodness, Fran, I'm in tears. I'm so happy to hear that little Phoenix has grown! And is doing great! You better start loving this little one - love this!!!

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  9. Yay! Great news :) I posted a pic on my blog with Cameron kissing Caleb...did u see it? I will post more pictures later...it is so hard getting a decent picture of them together...LOL

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  10. So glad for your good news! Hang in there!

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  11. Yay to Phoenix the fighter! Fran, this is SUCH good news, so brilliant to read and i'm just over the moon for you that things are back on track. MUCH love and hugs to you. x

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  12. That is soooooo awesome! Little Phoenix is a fighter!! Sorry you've been through the mill again - I hope things calm down:) feel better!

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  13. I love how kind and angelic and understanding the nurse was!

    Oh hi Phoenix! You really are!

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  14. Believe believe believe!! I am soooooooooo glad for this news, Fran. XOXOXOXO
    Love,
    Maddy

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  15. I am so happy for you! Phoenix is definitely a fighter!

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  16. Yay! You won't really believe until the Phoenix is a couple of months old and sleeping on your chest.

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  17. Fantastic news again! So thrilled for you!
    Puoenix, good job, keep it up!

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  18. Grow grow grow, Phoenix!

    Your medical team is so wonderful.

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  19. Yay! Hang in there Phoenix - you have a big brother who'se ready to play with you (and you will be his biggest fan).

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  20. I bled on and off (big bright red gushes of blood) until 16 weeks with Kade. It scared the crap out of me every time and I believed EVERY time that I was losing the baby I was trying very hard not to love. Phoenix is growing and I am so chuffed to be watching another survivor in the making here.

    Much love Fran - hang in there!

    xxx

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  21. Aah... I am so out of loop! Just catching up on you! So happy for you!

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  22. Fran!!!! I'm ecstatic for you:) Sending you every last little good vibe I have, but this seems to be headed in a great directions!!!

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  23. Oh, Sweetie, thank goodness! What a beautiful ultrasound and I'm so happy that you finally got some good news! I'm keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.

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  24. This baby is a fighter, you had better get used to the idea of meeting this little one next year. :) I'm really glad to hear the bleeding has been from a SCH. That really is a relief. While any bleeding in pregnancy is a heart-stopper, it is nice to know when it is being caused by something unhamrful.

    I'd tell baby Phoenix to hang in there, but I don't think I need to. ;)

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