One girl I know from a local forum was due to test today after her 3rd fresh ICSI cycle plus 2 more that got cancelled for various reasons. I was so hoping for her, I felt she had to start the ball of the PBFs rolling for this summer. And she did. She didn't test early, she was in fact very negative about the outcome, same symptomes as always etc. I am so happy for her.
Another girl, this one I know for real, also going through various cycles, one fresh and I think 3 more using her frozen eggs, after so much disappointment and only one chemical pregancy finally got her BFP today. I am so happy for her.
Then why is it that I feel sad? I know I am also tired which doesn't help, but I really am on the verge of tears...I think I'm afraid that it won't happen for me. Then I repeat to myself that we have the adoption card in anycase. And then I'm still sad. I tell myself that those girls have gone through hell and had a good few more cycles under their belt. That helps a bit. It is so difficult to be optimistic all the time and today I am not. But I'll be ok again tomorrow.