Baseline scan today. I had a new nurse, she was lovely and supervised (must have been the first scan she was doing). Thankfully (for both of us) all my bits are where they are supposed to be, so easy to find and to measure. All good to go, thin endometrium, quiet ovaries. Blood tests done also to check if me or Mike have got HIV in the last year...I know it's procedure but honestly it's quite heavy on the pockets to have to do this every time you cycle.
This time around they'll do a blood test at every scan to monitor E2. I said I'm glad to hear this, I know plenty of clinics do this and I was surprised here it wasn't done. I also said very clearly that I didn't want to take chances on this cycle of hyperstimulation, cancelling the cycle woudl be bad enough without getting any of the money back! She said they'l monitor me very closely.
Then she went through the meds...dear God...between the steroids, the heparine, the luveris, the puregon, the high strength folic acid and the vitamine B to help absorbing it I'll be like a walking clinic...and wait until we add the orgalutran for suppression. I have to say I didn't take it too well. Of course I knew this time around the "threw the proverbial kitchen sink at me" but it was still quite shocking. Even Mike flinched at the sight of all the injections and drugs I'll be on this time around.
On the way out Mike asked me "Aren't you happy?" I said I'm never happy to stuff myself with hormones, specially if it'll be just a big waste of time...
oh girls, I just don't know where to find a bit of enthusiasm to approach this cycle. I know how important it is to be positive and feel optimistic about it but I just don't seem to have it in me. Maybe I've given in to the fear that we'll never be parents of a bio-baby and I'm doing this just so that I can say I've done it again. Hopefully when the steroids will kick in tomorrow I'll feel a bit better, but I need all the help I can get this time around.