Saturday, August 29, 2009

Frankenstein's belly!

Meaning mine! I somehow don't remember my belly being so bruised the last time...probably the clex.ane and the aspirine made things a bit worse, but honestly it's horrible to look at! Around each entry point (four in total) I have a big bruise going now all colours of the rainbow. At least they kind of went very close to the entry points I had the previous time so when all is settled I shouldn't be too different from before. A part from the belly seems they have shrunk it! Ah well, it's not like I'm a teenager going around showing my belly, so probably it's not that big of a deal anyway.

I didn't have much to write these days so I didn't but I did read your updates and commented just in case you were worried about me ehehe. So while reading your blogs, I've asked my cyber friend Sam who had a lap only last wednesday, how her belly was coming along. Well...first of all she had her stitches removed 3 days after her op while the nurse in my case was not sure if I had disolvable stitches or not (...right...) but opted for the first option. My stitches are still there!! So after Sam replied to me I decided it was time for them to go and I removed them myself. At least now I don't have that pulling going on any time I stretch! The belly thanked me and started looking better already! I will not post a pic as I don't want to loose you my beloved followers, but trust me they had heavy hands this time!

So what's new. Well, the midwife specialised in ealry losses called me yesterday. I had called her on Monday when I was probably at my lowest and left a message. She did in fairness try to call me on wednesday, but I couldn't take the call so she left a message saying she would call on friday. And she did. I told her I was already feeling much much better but that probably it was no harm to go and see her once and get her expert opinion (like...I "think" I'm better but I'm going to crash soon!). She said that was a very good thing to do in any case and given that it's a free service (free!! I don't remember the last time I had something for free in Ireland) why not. I was already prepared for months of waiting list...and surprise! That's not the case either! She's going on holidays for two weeks and she'll see me on the 24th of September! Amazing. As for the rest I'm doing well I think, really looking forward to my HCG next friday and above all the appointment with the Super Doctor on the 8th.

I have started my two week detox plan and it's going well. I'm taking a food supplement which, believe it or not, it's specific for women on a detox plan (jeez...they really are one step ahead of the the consumer!), then I'm drinking a lot of water, I'm having a cup of green tea during the day (ideally at 11am but I don't get my head around it until 2pm it seems!), a detox juice with my lunch in work (carrot, apple and ginger, delicious!) and then I drink 500ml of herbal tea after dinner. Not sure if any of this actually does help you clening your liver from toxins, but I enjoy it anyway.

My period seems to be finishing off after a good 6 days (usually I'm more of a 3 days plus a couple with spotting) and still some traces, but I think I have some CM already! Not that it will be any good of course, but it's nice to know my ovaries are getting back to business.

Finally I have to tell you that Mike was extremely touched by all your comments on his posts and on himself afterwards, and given that he never really blogged or activily partecipated to a forum community, it all came as a bit of surprise to him. He kept saying in amazement how nice you all were! I know I have a lurker now! And I'm planning a very nice weekend for the two of us for his birthday in September, as a big big thank you for all he has done for me, I won't say any more for the moment just in case, but I'll tell you all about it afterwards!
I want to thank you also for having shared your stories with me, talking to people who have gone through the same bad luck helped immensely and above all, gave me much more hope for the future.

Ps: I was nearly forgetting! The pub was great!! Really enjoyed it!


  1. I'm glad you enjoyed the pub. :)

    Your poor belly... I am sure it much appreciated those stitches being gone! I hope that the bruising clears up. I am an easy bruiser and they hurt like hell, so I can imagine that you are feeling tender on the inside and outside. Gentle hugs...

    I hope that the midwife is able to offer some help and guidance. Praying for that...

  2. You're sounding more and more like the Fran I know and love. I hope the bruises clear up soon and I'm sure after a long 6 day AF, you're feeling so much better. Just 2 weeks till your appointment with the doctor!

    You know, I should tell you a story (I swear, this is true too). I worked in a law office with a young husband and wife. She became pregnant but hadn't told anyone. One Monday, suddenly, she was not at work and the manager said she had gone to the hospital on Saturday with great pain. In fact, she had an ectopic pregnancy. She was completely devastated and would not return to work for 3 months! Finally she came back and was sad for a long time. Her husband wanted to try again, but she was afraid to lose another pregancy. They consulted a doctor who gave them hope, and guess what? She got pregnant right at Christmas time! The following September she gave birth to a gorgeous little baby boy named Jackson. Wouldn't it be a nice Christmas gift to find out you are pregnant?

    And just in case Mike is lurking today, we - your blog friends who love you but are not able to be there in person to help you - feel happy and relieved that you have such a kind, thoughtful and loving husband to do all the things for you to help you feel better.

    Happy Weekend!

  3. So glad to see that you're healing up and that you're going to see the midwife! Sorry your belly is so bruised, poor thing!

    Hope the HCG appointment goes well also. Can't wait to hear about the special weekend.

  4. Boy are you ever tough. It's great to hear you sounding so fit and even (dare I say?) upbeat. Keeping a reasonably positive attitude and advocating for yourself go a long way to making you feel more in control.
    Hope you have a nice time with your surprise!

  5. Yay to the pub! Sometime send me a message and let me know whereabouts you are in Ireland - tis where my husband is from! He's just been here in Canada since we got married (10 yrs).

    I'm sorry about the bruising - I seem to create a patchwork of bruises when doing injections myself.

    You have another follower rooting you on! :) Wishing you the best.

  6. That is so sweet of you to plan a birthday getaway for him. You guys are just too cute. After my ectopic scars never did heal. I became concerned...and guess what?? I have that keloid skin. I didn't even realize it until after I didn't heal. So I have three ugly scars on my belly. :( One day I think I will try to have it removed.

  7. Fran, Thanks for visiting my blog. If your RE places you into medical menopause what medicine will he use? I'm just curious if Lupron Depot is the only thing they use.
    I'm so sorry about your 2 ectopic pregnancies, I hope you are finding the strength to deal with your losses.

  8. Happy to hear you are doing better. And thanks for commenting on my blog. Yes, your Mike did such a fabulous job while you were out. What a guy! I have 3 little scars on my belly too, from a gall bladder removal 4 years ago. I can only really see 1 of them now. Looking forward to the rest of your journey.

  9. Sorry to hear about the bruised belly but glad to know it's healing well. And removing the stitches yourself? you are a brave woman! Good luck with the detox - you'll be back on track before you know it! Hugs!

  10. Hello dear friend! I read your post the other day and didn't have a chance to comment and then became completely preoccupied with my nether regions and am just getting back to it now!
    I want to tell you how glad I am that you're enjoying your cleanse, and that you are taking care of business all around. I so admire how well you've handled everything thus far. Sending you healing thoughts and big warm hugs across the ocean! XOXOXO

  11. I'm so glad your belly is looking better since you de-stitched ;)

    And way to go on the detox thing - I keep thinking I need to drink less wine and start losing some weight before my next treatment... maybe I'll start tomorrow.... or maybe not.

    Thinking of you.


  12. ((BIG HUGS))

    Thinking of you and praying for you constantly.

  13. Fran, I can't imagine what your multicolor belly looks like. poor belly! good idea on taking those stitches off. How nice that the midwife had all these great points. I hope it does help. keep taking good care of yoursel. How cute that your hubby enjoyed borrowing your blog for a few days, that was adorable.


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